Exactly.
I can't honestly explain how happy this passage made me. That feeling you get, that can't really be defined: similar to kissing someone for the first time. You immediately doubt yourself, because feeling excited enough to run away isn't confidence by any stretch. You can almost feel the individual currents of adrenaline making you nuts. Afterward you claim your thoughts were racing, but you know better: they were right on her. At every moment and second, they didn't stray once. Your body feels full, as your heart pounds and your chest quivers in waves. You feel so full of motion: it seems impossible for you to be standing. Your fingers are moving slightly, and you keep blinking. Why aren't you running?
That's what this passage gave me. Why can't everyone be so joyous about life and living? Can it really be so simple: just live, and God will know? Can everything be so undefined yet ultimately settled?
I don't know if I trust this passage. I want to, more than I've wanted to trust anything written down ever before. It just seems to be too much to be… to be. It's perfect, to quote it. And we can't help but doubt perfection. We get cold feet at weddings. We get afraid during childbirth. We don't make eye contact. It's the human condition: we're afraid of what can bring us undeniable and overwhelming joy, because we're so afraid of rejection. If we can only break down that boundary, but that line of thought must be saved for another day.
I believe in the first four sentences. Those lines can change the world. It really is that simple, isn't it? We over think everything. Maybe it is that simple: we can't explain God. The Bible could be just a creation myth that caught on. We have no idea what life is about, regardless of our advances in science. We have art, but that… that would take too long. I believe in art, more so than 300-600 words. I'll save that as well. But we have so many… things, and we still have no answers regarding the great mystery of everything. What we're missing is that maybe that's alright. Maybe we can't comprehend everything. So why not simply embrace what we have? Paint. Love. Talk. Learn. Make. Do. Don't be overcome by the unknown, but rather embrace all you can that you can know.
Live life. Be happy, be peaceful, smile. Live life.
Maybe this Hindu thing isn't as crazy as I thought.
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Hey Cameron,
Your post made me think of a book you might like...Big Sur and the Oranges of Hieronymous Bosch, by Henry Miller. Check it out sometime if you're in the mood for a rambunctious good novel.
Jason
Wow. I loved your response. I found what it brought to you very interesting, because it brought such different thoughts and ideas up for me.
I find it interesting that everyone thinks of something totally different when they try to imagine what the sense of self must feel like. I think we all relate it to the most wonderful and precious thing we have personally ever experienced. I don't know...I agree with you though. I long to believe those words so much. I want to believe that we are all capable of feeling that wonderful and connected to the world like that. Do you think it is really possible? Man I hope so...
First of all...the way you write and express yourself is amazing. I wish I had half your ability; I'm a horrible writer.
I too want to truly believe this passage. The world would be a MUCH better place if everyone thought so. No more fighting and bickering.
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